Title: To Emma

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Hello, Emma. I am asking you to give me your opinion on my situation because I see here that you give really good advice.

Before I start off, the reason I made this so long is because every detail may be important.

Well, I met a girl on a cruise almost 2 years ago, and fell in love with her. Her name is Missy. I am 16 and a half, and she just turned 16. We are both going into our junior years in high school. The thing is I live in Florida and she lives in New Hampshire. I have been keeping in touch with her for the past 2 years, and I have told her before that I love her. She has told me that she doesnt feel the same way about me, but that maybe if we lived closer to each other it would probably be a lot easier. I have asked her if she would ever go out with me if distance were not a problem, however she doesnt know if she would because she feels that she doesnt really know me. Yet I feel I have known her all my life. She had told me that she didn't see anything happening between the 2 of us, but she told me though that maybe years from now we would bump into each other, giving me some hope. All she was offering me at that point was her friendship because of the distance and inability to really get to know each other. I knew at this point that she only saw me as a friend. This was in January when she told me. She dated one guy for about 4 months but then broke it off with him because she didn't have any feelings for him anymore, due to the fact that he wasn't the kind of person she wanted to be with. Around her spring break, I asked her what she was going to do. She said she wasn't going anywhere, but if she was she would come down to see me. A few times I have told her how pretty I thought she was, which flattered her. We have also talked about college and stuff. One time we were talking about college letters that we received, and she asked me if any of them were from NH, which no doubt clued me in on the fact that she wanted to see me again. I intend on going to college with her in the future, to where ever that may be, regardless of what anyone else says. She doesnt know this yet, nor does anyone else.

Well, her birthday was coming up in June, so I wanted to make it really special for her. I wrote a romantic poem for her, showing how beautiful I thought she was and expressing my love to her. I had it written in nice handwriting, and put it in a birthday card. in the card I scattered flower petals all around. I also tied a red ribbon around it just to give it a nicer touch. I then sent it out. On top of that I bought her a gold charm bracelet with the following little charms: a cheerleader, an elephant (her favorite animal), a charm from the phantom of the opera(her favorite play), a sweet sixteen heart, and a regular little heart.

Well, for the last week of June, her family was planning a trip to Orlando. When she told me this, I remembered that my father had told me a long time ago that maybe he would take us to Orlando during the summer. I told her that, and I said it would be pretty cool if we ran into each other. So I talked to my dad and he said that he wasn't so sure about going to orlando. I felt really stupid, but then my dad said maybe there was a chance we would be able to go. So some time went by. I called her up, and I spoke to her mother a bit. She told me that Missy had told her that my dad was planning to go to orlando during the summer, and she said it would be pretty neat if we did see each other. So now I felt like we just had to see each other. There was no set date for our trip, so I asked Missy's mom when they were going. So we scheduled something so we could meet up. So the date was finally set for June 28th and the 29th. We would only be there for 2 days, but as long as I got to see her again, it didn't matter.

On June 22, Missy's birthday, I called her up to wish her a happy birthday. I called her cell, but we couldn't talk for long because she was at the movies. When I told her I was calling her to say happy b-day, she responded with "awww". She was at her fathers house this whole time so she hadn't gotten my card yet. She then asked me, “What days are you gonna be in Orlando?” I answered. “Next Monday and Tuesday.” “Well, we have to meet up on one of those days, or both, because its been, what, 2 years, since weve seen each other.” Yes! She wanted to see me. So we hung up on good terms.

A few days later, on Saturday, I called her again. I asked her if she got the card and she said she did. “It was so sweet,” she said. She asked me if I had written the poem, and I said yes. We talked some more like for half an hour, and she was saying that she wanted to see me again. She was teasing me saying stuff like “I’ll call your cell, and tell you we’re going to one park and then we’ll go to another one instead, to trick you”. We both laughed and then she said, “ No, I wouldn't do that, Im not like that. I do want to see you again.” So sunday, I left to Orlando with my dad and my brother.

The next morning, I called her up and asked which theme park they were going to that day. They were at the entrance of Magic Kingdom when I called. About an hour later, we got there and I called her again. She was in line at space mountain, so we were gonna meet up there. We got to Space mountain but i still couldn't find her. Then I spotted her.

She was the most beautiful little thing I have ever seen. I called out to her and she looked over my way. She was surprised at how much i have changed. I had the bracelet in a little box in a bag for her. I told her it was a surprise gift. Well, at first we were gonna wait for them to get off the ride, but my dad asked security if i could get in line with her and they let me. We were so happy to see each other. She looked at the bracelet and said it was so sweet, i knew she loved it immediately. Her mother also thought it was really sweet of me.

She was there with her mother, step father, and her 2 step brothers. We said our hellos. So, we started talking about how much we have changed. She asked me how I thought she had changed. I told her that she had matured more and that she was prettier. She responded with an "Awww, thank you." So we talked a whole bunch while waiting in line. You know, movies, music, the bracelet, different subjects. The ride was fun. When we got in the cart, she sat up front, and I sat in the back. Her mom sat in between the 2 of us. Missy kept on looking back at me and smiling, telling me how much fun the ride was.

Afterwards, her family met my father. This was their first time meeting because it was my step father whom they met on the cruise. They got along great.

So the next thing we went to do was go-carts. We had fun there, too. We talked a bunch in line there as well. She thinks its cool that Im Hispanic, so I knew that she was into me. Her brothers then teased her a bit because of her short height, which I think is adorable. She kind of teased my little brother too, because he looked bored all the time. We went to get a bite to eat afterwards. I kinda teased her a bit by taking a picture of her eating icecream. She always had a smile on her face when talking to me. No signs of discomfort. After that, we went to take some pictures outside.

My dad and her mom wanted to get some shots of us together. So we had a few pictures taken. Missy told me that she would send me some pictures when she got back. After that we headed towards the haunted mansion. We walked together, and we talked some, then at some points she would walk ahead of everyone else, by herself. She and her brothers always kinda seemed to walk ahead of their parents, showing their independence. I remember kind of slowing down, getting behind her and her mother caught up to me. Her mom told me "Im thinking right now when the 2 of you met, how you were so shy to talk to her, and now I look at the two of you and I see how well you get along." I said to her "yeah, I know, God, it seems like such a long time ago" "I know, it does, geez, 2 years" was her mothers response.
Her mother loves me, and she also know that I am in love with her daughter.

We got there, and then decided to go to splash mountain instead. We got some more pictures taken of the 2 of us while we were heading to splash mountain. Then she got some shots of just herself with her own little disposable camera. When we got to Splash Mountain, it was just me, her, my brother, and her step dad. Her 2 brothers decided to go somewhere else, and my dad and her mom stayed behind and talked about us. No one said anything at the beginning, we were all waiting to get on the ride. The waiting time was about an hour and a half. It was really hot and humid, so she started pouring her bottled water on herself, as in all over her chest. We were both kind of laughing about it and I told her that she was getting a little carried away. She laughed and said she didnt care, because it was really hot. She isnt a big flirt or slutty or anything, so dont get the wrong idea about her. Then we started talking about different things. When we got on the ride, she wanted to get wet, so I stuck my hand out into the water, and I kinda splashed her a little, just as a little tease. We had fun on that ride as well. I purchased the picture at the end of the ride.

So after that we walked around a bit. I was getting kind of thirsty, so I got myself a bottle of water. My dad then told me it was rude of me that I didn't offer to get her something. I guess it was rude, and I didn't mean to be thinking of only myself. But I was just hoping that she didn't put much thought into it.

So we went to the other attractions like pirates of the carribean and stuff like that. We went to Space Mountain again after that, only this time it was me, her, my brother, and her step brother. She and her step brother were talking about some things, pretty much stupid things. They were arguing with each other and teasing each other. I was just listening in on them for most of the time that we waited in line, and then I sort of got involved. It was actually pretty funny. So after the ride, we got some more shots of me and her, only my brother and her brother were in the shots as well. We did a few more things afterwards. She went to get something for her friend at a little store, so we all went. While waiting in the store, she seemed really preoccupied in what she wanted to get for her friend. She got herself a few little souvenirs as well. While she looked for something to get her friend, the rest of us were talking and her parents said they were going to MGM the next day. I then said to my dad, “well, tomorrow lets go to MGM and hang out some more with them.” I said this right in front of her parents and her step father said, “sure, we could do that.” It kind of started to rain afterwards, but it cooled off.

We then went to the Mickey mouse 3D show, which we both enjoyed. Now, my dad talks way to much and I know that people start feeling a little uncomfortable when he just talks excessively. While in line to get in the show, he was talking to Missy and I about all this pointless stuff that I was hoping he wouldn't get into. He kept on talking and talking and talking, which just made me want to tell him to shut up. While he was talking his nonsense, I looked over to Missy and I sort of rolled my eyes to her, she laughed and kind of rolled her eyes too. Eventually my dad stopped talking. As we were waiting for the doors to open to enter the auditorium, A lady holding a baby got near us. The baby then kicked Missy, which made her a little upset. I looked at her and she had the cutest little look, I just wanted to hold her right there. In the auditorium, I sat next to her. We were both laughing how the people in front of us were like practically blocking our whole view. She thought the show was really cute. Around 7 we were gonna go our separate ways. On our walk to the entrance we talked some more, standing side by side. They were gonna go eat dinner, and we had to get going too. I hugged her mother and I shook her step fathers hand. Missy hugged my dad, then she hugged my brother. When she got to me she smiled, and gave me a hug. When she hugged me, it lasted a long time. We were standing there for quite a while in each others embrace. I dont know what was wrong with me, I didn't seem to hug her that affectionately at first, but I held on to her and she held on to me. I had the biggest urge to kiss her right there, but I held back. I was fighting back the urge to put my lips on her cheek, and I seemed to have rubbed my cheek against hers a little bit. I remember thinking to myself, " wow, she's hugging me for quite a long time". After a little while longer, I broke it off, and I told her "enjoy the bracelet." She giggled, and smiled and said, “yeah”. Before we left, I called out to her and said,” Oh, Missy, tomorrow the Rock n’ Roller Coaster”. She agreed with a look of excitement. It was her favorite roller coaster. We talked about it during that day. We then left.

I think to myself, she could have just given me any ordinary quick hug to say goodbye, but instead she gave me a nice long one. Longer than the ordinary hug you would give someone. I knew that she was giving me the signal that she liked me. Words did not have to make their way to me to make me understand. I figured I was capturing her heart little by little. She has the knowledge that I love her, and hugging me like this shows how comfortable she is with it. People may think that its only a hug, but this was more than just any ordinary hug. Besides, what other way could there have been for her to express her feelings to me when the rest of her family was standing right there. I wanted to get a kiss from her and I felt I was going to get it the next day. So day one went perfectly.

Tuesday morning I got a voicemail on my cell; it was from Missy, telling me they had a change of plans and they were planning on going to Epcot instead. She told me to call her back to see if we could meet them up at Epcot instead of MGM. In the meantime I was getting myself ready. Half an hour later, her mother left a voicemail on my phone telling me they were going to MGM after all. I called Missy’s cell, but she was in the shower, so her mom picked up. She explained everything to me. They had some reservations to go to at Epcot at 3 pm, so I would be seeing less of them that day.

When we got to MGM, I got a call that they were gonna be running late because of the bus. this was around 9. They said they weren't gonna be there till probably 10, and they didn't want to have us wait around. So we got in line for one of the rides. While in line Missy called me and said they were at the entrance. I told her that we would meet them afterwards. After the ride, I called her but they were in line for the rollercoaster. I told her that we would meet them there, but Missy didn't want to have us wait for them to get off the ride. I told her it was ok. So we got to the roller coaster and we ended up waiting about an hour or so, until we finally saw them. Missy looked content when she saw us, and we got together. She was with her older brother, talking to him when she saw us. It was now 11.

When we met up with her and her brother, they rushed over near the Tower of Terror to wait for the rest of her family. She stood there, keeping to herself, as was I . My dad told me that I looked tense and that I should go talk to her. He then asked her what her and her family did after they left the park the night before. She said they just went to eat and then they went to bed. She said she went to the hot tub for a little while. Her older brother then went to call his girlfriend back in NH. Missy told me this in a cute little tone. We talked a little bit. I had slept bad the night before and so had she. A little while later, I asked her if she wanted to take some pictures, but she said she didn't really feel like it.

When we met up with the rest of her family, we went back to get in line for the Rock n' Roller Coaster. Her mom and step dad went to go do something else, so now it was me, her, my dad, my brother, and her 2 step brothers. In line I kept pretty much to myself, and so did Missy for the most part. Her brothers were talking amongst themselves, and every once in a while Missy would talk with them. I just listened in on them. Everyone was silent for a long time, and I felt like I was blowing it. She walked in front of me. My brother and my dad walked behind me. I felt that I should have had something to say to her, so I asked her how she was doing, and what she was gonna do the rest of her trip. So we did talk a little. At one point, I remember when she was talking to her brothers about how the hair on her arms were getting lighter(No she's not a hairy beast) she looked at me and smiled, which reassured me with her comfort around me. But during most of the wait in line, she was silent and seemed to be in thought.

As we approached the ride, Missy was saying how much fun it was. I looked at my brother, and I told her that he still looked bored, and she smiled at the tease. Then she started teasing my brother by singing “If you're happy and you know it”. I sat next to her on the ride, and she told me to put my head back because it shoots off at a really fast speed.
We both laughed about it and the ride was awesome. After the ride was over, I realized I had dropped my cell phone while on the ride. I went back to get it and thankfully they had found it. Missy had asked me what happened and I told her. Afterwards, we stood outside for a while, thinking about what to do next. Missy had her mother take some pictures of herself with her little disposable camera. I noticed some guys checking her out, which angered me. After a while, I was getting kind of thirsty, only this time I asked her if she wanted anything, but she said she was fine. The silence between us resumed.

So we started walking some more. Her and her 2 brothers, began to walk ahead of everyone else again. A while later, they had to get going. This was the last time I would see her in who knows how long. Missy and I hugged again, only I broke it off a lot quicker than the night before. I told her that I was gonna miss her. She said " I know" in a tone of disappointment. Her mother told me that the bracelet was a perfect fit around her wrist. And Missy agreed. We started leaving them, when I called out to her. I had written her the following poem:

Beauty is what I see in you.
Love is what I feel for you.
Your ravishing eyes like the endless sea,
disguising themselves from that wondrous hue.
For they seem lacking of blue
which is the guise opposite glee.
Green with envy, might you agree?
Jealous of what? Her own beauty.
Relentlessly drowning in your everlasting smile,
like the dove who has been set free.
So crafty and witty, filled with blessed guile;
this is the love that has captured me.
And now it is you I see.
It makes this all worthwhile.
For it is gloom that now must flee.
For I have not a versatile
heart and all these feelings for thee
I know are true to the last degree,
all revolving around she,
and the one called she is you.
Now all else is out of view.
You alone have enchanted me,
so before we once more bid adieu,
you must know before we start anew
that this is the beauty I see in you.

I handed her the folded piece of paper.
She asked me, with a smile on her face, if she had to read it right now. I told her to read it in her spare time. And so they left.

I sat down for a while, in my thoughts. My father then sat next to me, and he told me that he honestly thought she had no interest in me. This just pushed me into a state of depression that lasted the rest of the day. But I mean just because he saw us not being so talkative that day as the previous day, shouldn't have made him jump to conclusions.

I have not spoken to her since, because after I got back from Orlando, I had another vacation, that lasted all of the following week. I did send her a letter, though. I plan on calling her soon. I have yet to find out her reaction to the poem. I believe that Missy does have feelings for me, although she may have given it some thought and told herself to be realistic that we live to far for anything to happen between us. I just hope my reasoning is correct, because on the first day she showed no signs of discomfort, and the hug that she gave me was like a gesture showing me that she did like me. The second day just confuses me. It makes no sense any other way.

I would just like your opinion, and if you believe that she sees me only as a friend, if you think there is a possible chance for us in the future. I intend on going to college where she resides.

Thank you for your time Emma, Im sorry it was so long.

Andres

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Thursday, July 22, 2004 - Andres...
Answer by: Emma

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Wednesday, July 21, 2004 - so nice
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