Title: What do I do?

By: jlm3804

Ok! This is a lengthy story so please bare with me! PLEASE!! My girlfriend and I have been dating for nearly ten months. I am 18 and she is 15. We first started going out back in high school when i was 17 and she was 14. I love her so much. She means everything to me. Ever since I have known her, she has always wanted to go to an Art college after she graduates high school. Maybe even moving to a bigger city since she loves places like Boston. However, we fell in love and she is very reluctant to go now. She has just got an offer to go to a trade school to finish out her high school career. She is trying to decide whether to go or not. We have talked about this over and over before about her going to an Art college away from here. I used to tell her that if she still wants to go when she graduates then she should go. I then told her not to worry about it until it is time to start looking for a college. She agreed. Then somewhere along this time, she thought of many different occupations that she could go for within this area instead of art. Due to me not being able to relocate because of work, family, and friends, she was thinking about giving up art to stay with me since there are very few opportunities in this area that deal with art. I was very grateful that she decided to stay with me but I felt guilty she was giving up her dream for me. All of her friends, teachers, and even parents have been hounding her lately saying that i shouldn't control her and make her stay with me and give up her dream. All they tell her is that i am no good for her and that we should break up. (It would kill me if this happened) I told her that if she wants to go then she should go. I don't know whether or not if we would be able to stay a couple due to a long-distance relationship. I have never had one but i hear they are quite difficult. The problem is not just the distance while she is in college but also after college there would be no job opportunities for her around here. Unfortunately I cannot relocate. I love her with all of my heart but i just cannot pick up and leave my job, friends, and especially family to follow her. This problem ceased to exist for about 3 weeks until the offer for her to finish high school at a trade school for art came. Now even after she promised me that no matter what, we would stay together, she is contemplating whether or not to go to this school which is within the surrounding area. I thought she was starting to forget all about art until this offer came. Now it has showed back up in our lives and she is thinking about going. I Love her and i want what is best for her. I cannot help but feel so helpless in this matter anymore. Especially since Christmas is around the corner, I know her parents are getting her a really nice set of art supplies that are costing them a great deal. I am at my wits end about what I should do anymore. I know that many people think that she is too young to worry about this or even that I am but i cannot help it. I cannot imagine my life without her by my side. She is everything (that is right in this world) to me. She says the same things to me but I question it sometimes when we are talking about this subject. I will be honest with you and say that i don't want her to go. I have told her that before and that is when she made that promise to never leave. I am willing to wait for her to get out of high school to get married or even just live together but another four years would kill me. I don't know if i might move on with someone while she is gone or even if she will. I don't want anyone else but her. I wouldn't worry about this unless I really think she will go on her own will or if she is pressure to go by others. But she has to make a decision soon and she always asks me about my opinion but i cannot give her my full opinion becouse i know she will stay to keep me happy. I want her to stay if and only if it will make her happy. God help our relationship. Anyways, I know this is a broad question but What should I do? I really need to calm down about this but i am just so worried about losing her. Please help me. Any opinions welcomed. Thank you for reading this lengthy rant but i really need some other opinions. Thank you.