Title: Lost Love: Will she come back?

By: wintersrain

This is a long one, but I really need help!
I have been dating this girl, we are both 19, since September 1, 2004. My roommate's girlfriend hooked me up with her cause I was always the third wheel on their dates. Well, long story short, we fell in love.
The girl is PERFECT for me. She shares all my interests and loves me for who I am. I love her with all my heart. I would announce it on national television if I had the ability to do so.
Two days ago, on January 10, she said she didn't think it was going to work out. We are two totally different people, she still loves me, but can't be in this kind of relationship anymore. Here is our story.
From December of 02 to January of 04 Rachel was with a man named James Songer. They were engaged, but due to his military life, he was called out in January.
She stayed with him, despite his absence, until graduation day, May 25, and then broke it off because she couldn't stand being alone for so long. She gets really attached. She had two boyfriends between him and me. One of which really loved her, but couldn't keep her because he didn't treat her right. In October of 2004, I discovered she was still telling James she wanted to be with him.
She broke up with me In November for a couple of hours because she thought she belonged with James. The man who has admitted to cheating on her 4 times, and has a child by a woman he cheated on her with, and constantly lies and breaks promises. She spent that day with me and said she changed her mind. She wanted to be with someone who cared. Someone who truly loved her. Me.
I wrecked my car on November 5, and haven't been able to find a new one since then, so she has been driving my mom and me both around everywhere (my mom's car got repoed). She fell for James once more between then and now but said she still wanted to be with me.
Now she says she felt used for transportation, and that I get mad every time she wants to spend time with her family or friends. I didn't mean to. I like it when she spends time with them. Shows she has a life outside of me. She now says she needs to figure out what she wants to do with her life, and can't be in a relationship if she wants to figure that out. She says I never listen, she always has to say things twice, and that she still does have feelings for him. I told her that I knew that she wanted to be with the me she had at the beginning of the relationship more than she wanted to be with anybody else in this entire world. She said I was right, but doesn't think I can change back into that guy. She misses the old me. And I just miss her so much. And I love her. What is going through her head right now? Will she ever come back? I still want her to. I can't move on until our relationship has had closure. And if she does, will she still love me as much as she did? Please help me.