Title: any help would be appreciated

By: Bstar

I apologize ahead of time for this sounding immature or really long but I have caused myself too much stress over this. alright...

april fools day I met this guy at a party. all nite we talked it was just like it was us two in our own little world. I fell instantly. and the next morning I was even jokin around saying I found my soul mate because he and I had so much in common. I found out his screename nd had kept it on my buddy list the whole time but I never had the guts to talk to him again because I am so shy when it comes to guys I really like. so I just went on with ym life. about a few days later my friend talked to him and was like 'you talked ot my girlfriend friday didnt you' he was like who so she told him my name and he said yeah and then she goes 'well she wanted me to give you her number' so she gave it to him. about a week passed and in my AIM profile I have a link for my online journal and it is a spy link that you can see who goes to your journal. well I looked at it a week later and his screename had looked at my journal and for about four days after that he would look at my journal practically 20 seconds after comin back on line *I know I sound like a stalker but hey Ig uess I am* I mean he was crazy lookin at it every five minutes. so finally one day I messaged him and we ahd short conversation. then it was the weekend and we all went to a party and he started holding my hand and that nite I went back wit him to his dorm room. nothing happened but we layed on his bed awhile holding hands then he kissed me. then he told me that he liked me. he said 'why wouldnt I like you? you are gorgoues and fun to hang out with.' so next day we go to another party and same thing happens but this time around he was extra caring to me and we talked about dating and he said that he hadn't had a girlfirend for awhile but he thought ti was time to change things. and we decided to start "dating" and see what happens. but he also warned me he is a distant person and mite come off as a jerk to me. and as long as I didnt get mad at him for it it was all good with the dateing. he also mentioned how he didnt want to get in a relationshp and realize that "the grass is greener on the other side" and I told him i didnt want a relationship yet either. he is so shy with girls its ridiculous. all his friends are shocked he even talked to me. but what I am getting at is this.....

I sit here reading this now and yet I still doubt it all. I have had my heart smashed to pieces twice since january. my ex boyfriend out of nowhere broke up with me because of the distance between us and the other whatever he was we hooked up all the time and he swore he didnt want a relationship but two days after I broke it off with him he was dating a girl and they are now boyfriend and girlfriend.

so I am having the hardest time in the world letting my guard down and no matter what happens with him I take it as a sign that he is not interested. I dont know what to say or do. I want to talk to him more about things but I feel as if I am being a pest. I just need some peoples in put...does it sound like he is interested in me? because I think to myself if he wasnt interested he wuoldnt of held my hand in bed all nite he wouldve been trying stuff or trying to hook up. he is a nice guy so I dont think hed just say things to me as a lie. I am so paranoid and hurt from the past I feel as if I mite be sabatoging a good thing. I need some advice on how to let my guard down, what to say to him or does it sound like he even likes me?

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Monday, April 25, 2005 -
Answer by: sam