Title: what can i do

By: Elliewoo

hi guys, just need a bit of advice. Been with my boyfriend for 2 yrs, obviously like anyone we have had our ups and downs. I am a very insecure person and i need reassurance but my boyfriend is not the type of person to do that, i think thats where the problem is, but enough of that. I love him so much, my first love, my everything im completely in love with him but his job has just taken him to america for 3 months which ive just come back from visiting him for a while. The thing is, he i now wont see him for 8 weeks and im gutted, i cant stand it and all i do is cry, looking over this, it seems im a bit obsessed but in reality im not atall, just miss him to death and he knows this but i woldnt make him drop it for the world cos it is an amazing opportunity. But when he comes backn in april, he is only here for a week and then he goes back out for 3 months which im dreading but hey, and then when he comes back afetr that, he has to decide (this is the cruncher) wether he wants to live there permanently or not. We have discussed this and he decided that if he does decide to then we have to end things im hurt but i do understand, im just scared. He said hes worried he'll say no, and then we'll break up, cos then he'd hate himself, and hes worried to say yes because we could be together forever and possibly have kids and stuff and he would have missed out. How can i prepare myself for this? Also im a very insecure person as it is, but ew talk online and im always really worried he is talking to someone else, or hes wanting someone else to visit him, lets face ithe could do what he wants and i would never know. god im so confused, there is so much more but i would never stop. please help, any advice would be great, and if ya need any more info just ask
thank you