have u ever lost that one person u truely cared about at no ones expense but ur own?..well i have...I had hooked up with a sophmore my senior year of high school..and thought i had fell in love with this girl..she was everything i have ever wanted in a relationship..she was smart..beautiful..funny..A CHEERLEADER..lol..which was a plus..and u thought u had it all.
we dated for 6 months. 3 of them good. 3 months into i didn't care i thought i could do anything and get buy with it. i always showed up late. i would have rather hung out wiht friends instead of giving her the attention she truely deservered. so like any girl would do after 3 months she dumped me. i was devastated..not knowing what to do i went into hiding. i drank alot. im talkin about 90 bucks a week on beer, and 15 more on a fifth of jose cuervo.(by this time i was outta school)..i boozed from pay check to paycheck..i benged for 2 months like this everyday..i secluded myself from everything. from family and friends there was no hope i was tryin to do everything i could do to drown out the past.. i know it sounds bad but it was what i needed..during this time i thought about everything i thought about our relationship what i had said to what i should have said, to what i did to what i didn't do, i thought about my grandfather who had passed away who was my father and my best friend, i thought about Sam Holbrook ( a classmate and close friend who had passed away in a car wreck our senior year of high school), but most of all i thought about God. I was already in hell and i needed to find myself. i had to make a choice to whether not to worry about it or to go down a new road. the right road. i found myself. i found the person i needed to be the person i am right now writing this...by this time it was to late after the boozing had stopped i had dug myself a hole..and i met another girl on the net who i dated for 8 monthsthinkin she was the one i could be with but deeo downi knew there was no point. i still had feelings for the one i let down..the one who loved me..the one i tore apart..after me and that one girl had split up i had to make a choice..do i go back to her..or make things write with the one i had lost..the one i loved..we started talkin as friends when we seen each other and her friends always told me she still loved me and all this stuff..i emailed her tellin her how i felt and she emailed me back not what i expected but good..she loves me but cant be with me shes 18 years old but still livin with her parents..her parents love me as a person but not with her beacause of the past..caus eof the hell i put her through..but coming into this as a changed person should i give up or should i go and convience her parents i have changed?..and show her what being in a relationship is truely about?
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--- Thursday, February 16, 2006 - hmm
Answer by: Elliewoo
didnt like the las part, "showing her what being in a relationship is all about". She quite clearly knew, and you didnt, hence you writing this. First off, if i was the girl you met on the net, and i found out i was your second choice, i would PREFER if you did not pursue me, or use me in such a way. I think that you need to wait, im not saying give up on the girl you loved, im sure there is something to rebuild, but if you have the slightest doubt in your mind that you are just going to do the same again, then leave her alone, stop hurting her. I think staying friends for a bit (not saying yrs) but just let her know how much ya care with little subtle things, like asking her to join you in things you would have never asked her before, like with your friends and such
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