Title: i let him get away.....=(

By: neverthtgurl

ok i dated this guy over a year ago and we only dated for a short time just a couple months but we talked 4eva b4 tht and he always said he loved me even b4 we dated when i finally gave him a chance it was great...i lost my virginity to him and it was the only guy i never regreted it all seemed so perfect yes we had fights and at times he would ignore me at school but when we were together he was the sweetest guy completely different from wht everyone thought....

in the end it seemed like me and him started arguin(honestly i have a commitment prblem) ever since tht decision he cried to me on the phone sayin he wanted me back but when i was goin to take him back we had sex again and idk i got scared and needed time and when i was ready he seemed like he wasnt. but hes been on my mind for so long every nite i wish he was with me things werent perfect but i never felt something so strong w/ne one and ive dated many guys and they seem better then him at first but then hes always popping up in my head

everytime im around him i try to drop hints tht i still like him and when i see him flirt wit another gurl i go CRAZY and it hurts so bad ive tried to move on but everything seems so special from our first date to first kiss and to our first time we made love...it was just so great and idk if i can find tht again...wht do i do? its been so long do i just move on? or wht?