Title: I seriously need help....please read this.

By: Kaylee

I've been going out with this guy for almost 8 months now. We started going out in the beginning of the school year and we hardly knew eachother. I liked this guy since I was a little kid and I never knew he had the same feelings. Well, eventually he asked me out and things weren't so good at first. We hardly talked for a couple weeks then things got a lot better. We are two very different people. My parents are together and a LOT stricter than his mom. He's been into drugs and is only 16. He gets drunk and he smokes. At first he did it a lot and eventually he stopped doing it, because he knew that I hated it.
Everything was going GREAT for the 3rd-6th months we dated and then he started pushing me aside. For a week of vacation out of school, he called me once and his excuse was that he had been working and i found it very hard to believe that, hence i knew he'd been working with his friends and they just went off and did whatever after work.
He blew me off then and then school came back and we were good again. In the seventh month we'd been dating I broke up with him, and he cried on the phone explaining he had loved me so much. Well, he got sick after we broke up, with apendisidis (sp?) and for two days straight I cried, I seriously was in depression. I had to leave school because I was crying in school. Everything felt like a dream. I'd put myself in such a comfort zone with him that nothing seemed happy anymore, knowing that he wasn't with me anymore.
I didn't know he was sick until two days later and I went to the hospital to see him. We got back together.
For a week after that he had to stay home and away from his friends cuz he was grounded and he called me once a day and everything was perfect. I loved it.
Then he stopped calling me once he got back with his friends and he only called when he felt like it which was like every 2 or 3 days.
Then summer vacation came and everything went downhill. We hardly talk. He NEVER calls me. Maybe once a week if that. and when I call, he's only sometimes home. I wonder why he won't call me though.
I feel obsessed, but I really do love him. And I don't know why. I'm only 15, but this feeling is so strong.
Sometimes I wish I had never met him. He's ruined my life because I love him so much. I cry if he doesn't call me, and normally I sit by the phone or carry it around with me in hopes that maybe he will call me. I'm usually the one to make plans and sometimes I think he feels obligated to get together with me.
I hurt just to stay with him, and I don't know what to do. I CANNOT break up with him, it hurt to much last time. I know there are so many guys out there, but other than the fact that he never makes time for me, he's everything I've ever wanted. I love it when we're together. He makes me SO happy when we are. When he's around me, he makes it sound like he has fun too, but I'm confused because he acts like he doesn't want those times after they're all over.
Please help me.

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Tuesday, June 29, 2004 -
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Tuesday, June 29, 2004 - I will help not expert but this is my guess
Answer by: michelle