Title: Torn Between Two Ways

By: Rookie

Okay, here's my deal.

I am in love with two guys, or so I believe. It's tearing me up inside. My heart is pulling me two ways and I want it to stop! Here's the story behind each...tell me who you think I love or should be with more.

Guy #1-Maxwell AKA Rainbow
Max has been my friend for only a few months. We met at ROTC summer camp. We were in the same platoon together. We met the day our company went to the LRC (Leadership Reaction Course). It's where you test your leadership skills and perfer tasks that are complicated and junk. Well, he was in my platoon in my squad, and I had never noticed him before! Well, me and my friend were standing around, watching a task be performed and I did something and Liz (my friend) told me to stop it before I broke this board. I heard a male's voice say that he could riverdance on it and it wouldn't break. I had been turning around to ask what riverdancing was and to tell him to bug off when I met a pair of glittering blue eyes that had the faintest flicker of green in them. I could only stare for moments. When I regained myself, I asked. Then we were great friends since. He lives three hours away, but we talk everyday whether it's on the phone or computer. He is so funny and he's sweet in his own way. A little rough around the edges, but sweet. I have been head over heels for him since we met. I dont think he'd ever love me though and he doesnt know of my love for him.

Guy #2-Lewis
I've known Lewis for a long time. I met him in the 5th grade at an afterschool care place. Well, back then, I was a little tomboy. My silk curls of dark brown hair pulled back in a tail, jeans and t-shirt, and a fist that knocked any opposing boy on his butt. I was one of the biggest tomboy to walk those halls. Well, Lewis (back then) was a little smart butt. He was rude, mean, heart-breaker, and many other things. He was a good friend of mine. We'd always be fighting, but that was like a normal nice chat for us. Well, he moved or something and I didn't see him after the 6th grade. Till this year. I'm in 10th grade now. He's in 9th. Freshman. Well, the first time I glanced at him, I nearly tripped over my own feet. He'd grown! Tall, dark, and certainly a cutie. Sure, I was attracted to him, but he was rude way back when and I wasnt sure he'd go for me now. I never took the time to say hey to him though. Except for when I was coming from my 1st hour class. He was going to the class I was coming from. I was talking with my friend and I happened to glance over when he was coming by and our eyes met. My hazelish green ones to his deep darkened brown ones. Time literally froze for me. Then he gave me a big grin, turned and walked away. I continued on my way too. I couldn't get him out of my mind from then on. His eyes, the way I felt...it drove me nuts! Now, you gotta know something...I'm a sucker for colored eyes. Green, blue, hazel...thats it. I usually hate brown eyes. Yet his were so amazing that no eyes matched up to them. (BTW, I think of eyes as gateways to the soul) and his soul bedazzled me. Then, today at practice, (our first drill team practice of the year and freshman were trying out), I was just chilling up front and hanging with my girl Cleo. Then I look over and BAM! Lewis is sitting right there. I turned pink and sat down in my seat quickly. For the rest of the time, I wanted to avoid him because I was shy. Then we went outside and *I* was chosen to teach him and another boy to spin. He kept watching me and smiling big when I talked. I dunno what was up. Does he like me? I know it's extreme, but the connection I felt when I met his eyes makes me beleive I'm in love.

So, do you think they love me? Do I love them? Which is right for me? Tell me any opinions please! Oh, and should I tell Lewis or Rainbow I like them? ADVICE WOULD HELP!

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Friday, August 20, 2004 -
Answer by: Sam