Title: Something Is Beginning...Or What?

By: JrRookieBaby

I hope you can help me out. I'm 15 so that should give you a good view of what I am going through. I think I may have a more than liking for a fellow friend of mine. And this is not a recent thing. I met him summer of '04 (this past summer). We were in JROTC summer camp with him from his high school and me from mine. We were instant friends and I had an instant crush. A physical attraction at first, I admit. He was (is) a cutie. Pale greenish blue eyes, dirty blond hair, tall, and he plays guitar. A girl's dream right? Well, physical attraction stayed and my emotional one grew. His personality spoke to mine. Even though we seem like sorta different people, we click so good that it's odd. You have to understand, I don't do things to rebell, so the fact he has his own band and listens to hard rock didn't pull me in really. It was part of his charm. Our week at camp came to pass and we parted ways after a hug and exchanging of emails, screen names, and phone numbers. I thought it was the last time I would see him, although I truly hoped not. I got home and I got online on my AIM service. He popped up instantly, wanting to chat and see how my trip home was. We became close very fast. Normally though, if I meet friends that don't live near me, our communication is strong at first, then dwindles out as we both lose interest or time. This hasn't. We talk everyday, sharing things from jokes in school to what we will do when we're old. I hadn't seen him in 5 months, but then at a Drill Meet that both our schools went to, we were together again! He gave me a hug and was chilling with me the whole time. Even though he hardly shows emotion, he said he was happy to see me and everyone else. He never tires of me nor I of him. As of late, my confidence has been low. I dream about Max (that's his name) more and more. He is more affectionate towards me in my dreams (not sexually, just caring) and I wake with an odd light feeling in me. He's never really shown any interest in me like boyfriend kind, but my best friend KayC tells me that Max likes me. I want to believe KayC because he has never led me wrong, but I'm not sure. Until Max said he thought I was cute and I was one of the coolest girls he has ever known. I was very happy. But I don't know what to do. Am I in love? I believe I just might be. He lives 3 hours away, but that doesn't seem to matter to me. I would be true to him no matter how far the distance if we were to end up together. So, how do I progress this further? He is a sarcastic, don't do feelings much, yet caring in his own way kind of guy. How do I approach him in my love struck state? Help would be wonderful. Thank you.

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Tuesday, October 19, 2004 -
Answer by: DAVE