Title: What Should I Do Now??

By: Julie04

hi everyone, first of all i would like to thank everyone who has taken the time out to read this and help me out. so thanks! :) Ok, lets try to make a long story short. Alright, well i met this guy Kevin over three years ago. I guess you can say that it was an instant attraction. Although i had a boyfriend at the time we became friends. I then decided to break up with my boyfriend only to find out that Kevin was talking to another girl. But once we hung out again he wanted to start things up with me. Well things just didnt work out. I was obsessed with him though. I've never felt this way about ANY one else and i've had many boyfriends. Kevin had a girlfriend for 2 years though although he would always call me from time to time and tell me that he wished things would've worked out between us and blah blah blah. I never once have gone a day without thinking about him. But only this last summer did we become close. Him and i had sex, and i've only have had sex with 1 other guy and hes only been with 1 other girl so it was a big deal. He cheated on his girlfriend but then broke up with her. him and i started to hang out a lot more but things still werent right. I acted out in stupid ways such as calling guys while being with him to make him veiw me as "popular" and wanted. but it just pissed him off and he told me that he didnt even answer his phone when he was with me. And he would never take me out. We pretty much just messed around. Although he did take me to San deigo twice. and he told me all the time that he liked me. And then he would change his mind and tell me that i wasnt his type of girl and he didnt like me. Then he would call me again and apologize and say that he was just scared of getting hurt by me since i was so beautiful. This went on for a couple months. i know, it was pretty ridiculous. finally one night we both broke down. And I ended up cying about how i've liked him for sooo long and he ended up kicking me out of his house saying that i didnt really like him and that if i did i went about it wrong. Now Kevin is in a band and invited me to his next show. So i went, but got there late and he hands me a CD since i missed part of the show. Needless to say there was a song about me called Beautiful Manican. It was about me being beautiful on the outside but fake on the inside. and how i just wanted him cuz i couldnt get him. then i went over to his house to pick up some things and he was there with another girl. that killed me. Just 2 nights ago i went to one of his shows to see my friend Neil play but i missed neils show and walked in just as kevin was about to play beautiful manican. he saw me and smiled and then in the middle of the song he looked over at me and smiled and slightly mouthed the words "sorry" so it wouldnt be obvious that the song was about me. Anyway, after he was done i was with a buncha my guy friends and neil went up there to sing me a song since i missed his show. everyone kept telling me that kevin wouldnt stop looking at me and he tried talking to me but i was just short with him. But then i saw him kiss this ugly girl right in front of me!! the same girl who was at his house when i went to pick up my things. so i left and the next day he IMed me and said "u hate me?" and i was like no not at all it just sucked seeing you last night especially with another girl. and then he said "i wasnt really with another girl and im sorry but u were with a couple guys yourself" and then he was like" im so sorry about singing that song i almost didnt play it when i saw you and i promise if you come to the next show i wont play it." and i was all "well i dont know about that it hurts seeing you still. when you see me do u have any feelings at all? its ok to be honest i just want to know." and then he said "yeah, i have feelings when i see you. seeing you make me really miss you. i wanted to talk to you but u seemed like you didnt want to." and then i was just like, im sorry it was just hard. and then he said he had to go and he would talk to me later and he got off. so now i dont know what to do. Should i ask him to hang out during break? just something casual like "lets hang out once during break." or should i give him a specific time? like "lets go to the movies on friday" or should i ignore him? should i tell him i like him or call him? IM SO CONFUSED! all i know is that i cant forget him! please help me! any advice would be greatly appreciated! thanks..sorry so long.

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Tuesday, December 21, 2004 - that's okay! Love pro adviser here to help!
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