Title: I Think its love

By: 305

Well, to start off my story I have to go two years back in time when I met this beautiful girl, her name was Mariam. I remember being with some of my friends when I first saw her. She was walking her dog, my friends somehow knew her, but I had never before seen her or perhaps never noticed her (I’m getting butterflies in my stomach just reminiscing about her). We got introduced to one another, the day went on, and we were getting along just fine talking about everything and anything. She soon had to go home so we exchanged phone numbers, that same night she gave me a call and she confessed to me that I was someone who she could easily talk to, that she felt very confident talking to me. Long conversations went on day after day for about two months (the conversations would sometimes get very personal) I had already brought up the subject of us being together, but she somewhat rejected me she said, “I’m sorry I only see us as very close friends”.I started talking to another girl and I did what any friend would do and told my friend (Mariam) she acted like everything was fine, but I knew it wasn’t because our conversations started to shorten up. I brought the girl I was talking to around the neighborhood and Mariam spotted us, she came outside and I could notice the jealousy, it went on for quite a while every girl I would bring around would get her pissed, envious, angry, (all that good stuff).

Well after like a year she moved, not very far from my house I still visited her once in a while, but our friendship wasn’t as strong anymore. Four months later she moved even farther our communication was at its lowest. She came to pick me up with her mom so we could go out to lunch (I had already met her mom, she was ok with me) Her mom was tired from driving so much, so she asked me to drive and with my luck it starts to rain really bad. I put the a/c on defrost and I continue driving, the rain is getting worse by the minute all I remember was seeing gray all around the car, so Mariam’s mom tells me to pull into a parking lot, so I do and I didn’t realize the parking lot was flooded. Well I drive through the water and the car shuts down. I had cracked the radiator. We sat in the car for a very long time waiting for the tow truck. While we waited Mariam got hungry. I offered her and her mom some food, her mom said no, and Mariam I believe said, “Where are you going to get food?” I said I’ll be back I came back with Fettuccini Shrimp Alfredo, and a sprite (I know she loves both) her mom noticed how much I cared for her daughter and let out some tears and she said “I know now that you really love her” (at least someone can see it) I left to work. Well now I’m on her mom’s really good side.

Well things start to go bad between her and me again (bad as in we are not talking too often). Finally we talk I find out she has a boyfriend “whoa”, that hit me, I was in her position, now I’m the one who is all jealous. While she was going out with him she would call me and see me more than she would talk to him. Well I couldn’t stand it was really driving me crazy. One night I wrote my thoughts on paper, I wrote it because it was something I wanted to tell her. The next day I’m at her house and I was showing her a project I was working on so, she sees the paper I had wrote my thoughts on, and she asked me what it was, I wasn’t ready to tell her so I said nothing and put it in my pocket. That same day we were going to go see her dog at the vet and the whole time she was bugging me to see the paper so I finally let her see it (the paper said that I love her and I needed to try and forget her cause I was being hurt, and I couldn’t be her friend for at least a month so thing would go better between her and her boyfriend and so I could get back with my ex-girlfriend, not exactly in these words). As she reads the paper I hear her laugh, it was like a nervous laugh but when she finishes she is crying, not crying because she was touched by what I said, but crying cause I wasn’t going to see her for a while. The whole ride back home she was crying it made me want to cry (I’m a very strong person but seeing her cry hurts me). A week or so later her dog dies she gives me a call I went over and she cried on my shoulder for a long time. After that day things went back to normal she broke up with her boyfriend I am no longer with my girlfriend and we are good friends again. Now, the weird thing is that even though my love for her is so strong I’ve never even tried to kiss her.

Finally, my question, should I go ahead and kiss her, should I ask her out, or keep the friendship how it is?


SORRY IT WAS SO LONG I JUST WANTED Y'ALL TO UNDERSTAND ME

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Saturday, May 28, 2005 - Thank You
Answer by: 305

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Wednesday, May 25, 2005 - amazingly beautiful!
Answer by: eskemo