Title: She said no, while the other asked me?

By: marker_blue

Some of you might know or remember me. So, I'll give it in detail just because I feel like shit and am so confused.
A few of us, forty one total including chaperones, in eigth grade were signed up for a trip to the eastern seaboard, starting in boston and working our way down. There were some people on the trip I knew, knew well, and didn't really know. There was a girl on the trip I had a crush on. You might remember her as being my neighbor. I really started having more feelings for her again. I began to get jealous when other guys were around her and I wanted to see her or be in her group every day. I thought I was getting mixed signals from her. We would talk sometimes. The last full day on the trip, we went to Busch Gardens, that really awesome theme park. I got lost from my group later in the day after going on practically all the rides, and I looked around for another group. I had actually wanted to be in the crushes group in the first place. Well, I saw her, a friend of hers, and one of my three roomates walking near a ride called Appollos Chariot. I walked over cause I wanted to stick with them until I found my original group. My roomate, smaller than me, tried to get rid of me. So, as they got on the ride, I walked off. Feeling depressed. Overly depressed. I starting tearing. I began to think I was scaring everybody or something. Hell, I'm at least two year older than everyone, a hundred or fifty pounds heavier, and five or two inches taller. Plus I'm just plain different.
Now, I felt, betrayed. And confused. So, I had my back up for the rest of the night. I felt like shit. Oh, by the way. At every hotel we were at, everyone would be doing these prank calls. The idiot of my room mates and my enemy, said I wanted to 'fuck her hardcore', my crush. I had also given her a teddy bear.
Well, I found out that night back at the hotel that I actuall wasn't betrayed, that the guy wasn't trying to move in on her, cause he knew I liked her, he was trying to get her to ask me out. He said she was old fashioned though and that I'd have to ask her out.
Next day, we're on our tour bus. She is asleep. The guys and girls in the back want my attention. "What?"
They ask if I'll go out with this one girl, my crushes friend. I'll admit that she is attractive and kind of my type. You know what I do? I start stuttering like a mad man. I don't know what to say. That certainly wasn't something I was expecting. I get five minutes to make up my mind. I tell them "Yeah, I've made up my mind". Now, they didn't ask anything further. Either they were waiting or this was just pressure. I don't know. The girl they asked if I would go out with was asked out by another room mate of mine, but apparently she said no.
Now, our last day on the tour. We leave in the after noon and arrive home at night. We make a stop in Pheonix to switch planes. I've been told that I should ask my crush out. I eventually and finally gather up the courage to go over there. After about five minutes, I stutter once then ask her out. She talks with her friends for a minute then takes me over away from them. She tells me she thinks we should only be friends, and not like romantic. I say okay. I'm cool with that. I really was. I respected her choice, and I was willing to go through with it. I was a little surprised I guess. I'm fifteen and that was the first time I'd ever asked a girl out before. I had no idea what to expect or say.
Now, walking onto the plane, I'm told I should ask out the crushed friend, whom I was asked if I would go out with her before. I am told this by the guy she rejected. I've bene asked if I was okay by the crush, and haven't really done much or gotten much attention since then. And I just got home.
So, I didn't want to make it seem like a rebound by asking the friend out. I don't even know if she meant it. So, I need a little help, advice, opinion, whatever. Thanks for your help and reading this thing. I need it. Thanks.

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Monday, June 6, 2005 - hey kev..
Answer by: lanalee